The bold phrase: “I’m going to go find myself!”
We’ve all heard this said, maybe even said it ourselves, but what does it mean?

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153 days ago
I ran through the Oklahoma City airport desperate to board a plane to Italy.
And then I woke up the next morning in a foreign country with
four roommates,
no heat,
a broken elevator,
and no idea where I could find the nearest grocery store.
I found myself wondering if I had made a horrible mistake.
And now,
6 months later,
I have changed dramatically.
Something happened to me, actually a lot of things happened:
I fell in love with photography,
I met people from all over the world,
I traveled to Spain and Africa,
I became rapped up in a romance or two,
I started speaking another language,
I began dreaming about Paris
and suddenly,
I realized I was not same girl that got on that plane.

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I felt unstoppable.
It’s as if at home in Oklahoma I had locked myself in an invisible cage of excuses
as to why I could never have the life I always wanted.
And by leaving everything behind,
breaking my routine,
leaving even those I loved most,
I was the given the space to hear my own voice.

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So, a question I have asked myself over the past few days is:
did I have to travel thousands of miles away from my life in order to find myself?
Was the true me hiding away in Italy all this time?
I asked this question to several study abroad students today and surprisingly
the answer was: yes.
The students voiced that they don’t know that they would have ever had the depth of understanding
about themselves that they do today
had they not been willing to leave everything behind and embrace a completely different life.

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Honestly, I don’t think finding yourself is about the place, though the place can help dramatically.
I think it’s about breaking your routine, changing your perspective
and above all: giving yourself the SPACE that you need to hear your own voice.
For some of us that space may be thousands of miles, for others it may just be a room, or a forest away.

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Whatever it is, it’s about getting away from an autopilot existence and being willing to see past our day
to day hassles that can keep us from moving towards a life worth living.

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Truth be told, I’m still not sure how to define what it means to “find yourself.”
Taking these self-portraits helped me realize that I did find a part of myself in Italy
but I still have a long way to go in the process of discovering who I am.
I hope I never stop changing, never stop discovering and surprising myself, because for me this is the
essence of life:
gathering up and joining the pieces of who we are meant to be.